I think my heart just dropped.
About what?
Today before you fell asleep you said “I don’t want to break up with you…well for a while”. Then you started to talk about how you would do it and when you were going to do it, for instance you said if you did break up with me it wouldn’t be in person and would not be in the months within close proximity to my birthday or cotillion, so it was either February, March, or anywhere after July.
The scary part is I couldn’t tell if you were joking or not. Seriously? How many of your ex-girlfriends have you ever discussed this with? I want to know. Because it’s one of those things where it’s common sense that you don’t tell your girlfriend unless you want her to start over thinking about everything. Seriously why would you even want to tell me this? We haven’t even been going out for 2 months yet.
Idk. Sometimes I just feel like your really bored with me. Sorry I don’t have much to say when you call. Most of the time you’re the one doing all the talking. And our personalities are completely opposite from each other.
Don’t get me wrong I really like you a lot, even if sometimes you are extremely stupid, I’m so happy I have you. But I just sometimes feel like you’d be so much happier with someone else. Gawd, you even said you can get anybody you wanted. Then why did you choose me?
I’m glad you fell asleep right after you said that because I was freaking bawling my eyes out. I hate over thinking.
So sorry.
Okay Yeah. Sorry for being too lazy for you, for falling asleep while cleaning my room. While in actuality I was just tired. Want to know why? Because last night I was too busy on the phone with my boyfriend on and off till 6 in the morning, worrying about him walking around south Hayward at night after getting shit faced drunk at a party. Sorry for being worried, next time remind me not to answer my phone or better yet just remind me not to care.
Sincerely, Your girlfriend.
Heh. I get it.
(Source: allyb)
I think I’m just kidding myself.
Or maybe I’m just over thinking.
I kinda thought we were clicking here.
Everything seemed like it was going so well.
But now I feel like maybe I’m just a small fling you’re having.
And right now I just want to know where we stand.
Because I don’t want to get up only to be pushed down again.
Why am I so nervous?
I’m so confused for what to do right now. One part of me really likes you the other part is saying no. I can’t tell if your a player or maybe if she just had a misunderstanding or misconception of you. Players are trouble and that is the last thing I want to think about right now.
But its weird how I haven’t really met you before except that one short encounter but every time you text me my stomach goes all flippy-floppy and I can’t think of anyone else but you and my face breaks out into this big smile that won’t go away. You’re the only one that has ever made me feel this way before.
This never happened to me before, but I have this gut feeling everything is going to go wrong and I won’t be the girl you expected me to be. But then I get this feeling where I’m thinking I just have to go for it.
When you talk to me you sound like you’re into me too. But today is the judgement and I’ll find out if maybe we could happen.
But for now I’m just scared and have no clue what to do.
Hi, I’m just a little awkward.
Or a lot…. Whatever.
I’m not a very big talking person. I get a bit tongue twisted at times. I usually plan what I’m going to say in my head and right when it comes out it just rolls out an explodes and becomes the exact way I didn’t want it to come out as. I’m one of those people where as soon as I feel a conversation is going to end I blurt out the first thing that comes to my mind…which is usually random nonsense. And the suckish part is as soon as I start there’s no turning back.
And yeah, WORD VOMIT.
